How many Lap band blogs are there out there? Millions probably. Here's just another to add to the bunch.
My name is Liz and I'm 20 years old. I was banded 10 Days ago.
Getting banded was a decision I made by myself. I have been overweight for almost four years now, and the thought of being fat for the rest of my life scared me straight. I have tried alternative weight loss methods, I have lost 20kg with Weight Watchers, and ten weeks later I put it all back on.
The reason I am overweight - emotional eating. Head hunger. Comfort eating. Not feeling full. Never knowing when enough is enough. I have made so many excuses for my weight, and I'm sure that they are relevant, but the simple fact is that I ate a lot of junk food whenever I felt sad. And living with Depression for four years, I have felt sad nearly every damn day.
Before I put on weight 4 years ago, I had a very good relationship with exercise. I loved it, I went to the gym three times a week, as well as playing netball twice a week. I was a slim girl, but I had terrible body image. I thought I was fat. Huge. I was an Australian size 12. (I am six foot, so that is slim for me.) I am now a size 16-18. I look back at photos of myself and I wish that I can be that girl again. I LOVE that girl, she looks amazing. But at the time, I felt like shit.
I want to have a healthy relationship with my body, but its going to be a struggle. Growing up in a private all girls school, I observed and learnt a lot from the girls around me, and the standards they held. As a result, I have a weird relationship with food and my body. Before I got banded, if I felt extremely guilty, (which would only happen approx. 1 time a month) I would make myself throw up. If I wanted to loose a kg, I took laxatives.
I'm going to try and stop all of that now. I want to be normal. I want to have a normal relationship with my body. But before all of that, I want to be honest. I'm hoping that while I navigate the journey of having a Lap Band, that this blog will keep me sane.
I know that there are so many of you out there who are doing the same, and reading about your journey is uplifting. It gives me hope that in a year, someone might come across my blog and read from the start to the end and see my progress, and hopefully they will be inspired too.