Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Envious

I'm not sure if I have explained this in a previous post or not, but I'm going to tell a short version of this. I had surgery booked for July, and I did the optifast 2 weeks prior. I stuck to it so well and I lost 7kg. Then I had a severe drug reaction on the morning of surgery, and we had to cancel it. So over the next month or so I put all that back on. Then surgery was booked again, and I just didn't have it in me to do the optifast again. I just couldn't force myself to. And my doctor didn't really care.

So I went into surgery having lost no weight. And then I lost 5kg the week after surgery, and I have since put 2kg back on. Because now, I can eat whatever I want again.

I'm frustrated. I'm so envious of all you other girls who start off with such a good weight loss. I mean....to be honest....I'm scared that I won't loose this weight. You guys are an inspiration to me. Usually I start a blog and I write for one day and I give up. But I actually want to read about you guys and hear your news and you make me think that I may be able to loose this weight, maybe it will just take me a little longer. I am so confused!!

7 comments:

  1. Liz, you are doing so great to write as often as you do. This is a great support network, especially if you are feeling down.

    Don't stress too much about the band. Its early days yet and you really haven't got started yet. You'll see once you get that first fill in things will start to brighten up. Before I had my first fill I felt like it must have all been a dream because it didn't even feel like I had a band but now I've had that first fill I really feel better about it all.

    When is your fill again? Can't be long now...

    ReplyDelete
  2. Aw how frustrating. I would have been devastated if they told me on the day of surgery that I couldnt get banded. I wouldnt have wanted to do Optifast again either.

    It seems a lot of people are back to being able to eat whatever they want before their first fill. I think what you are going through is completely normal.

    Hang in there! None of this will matter in a year from now :)

    ReplyDelete
  3. This is VERY common. I was on Unjury 2 weeks prior to surgery and 1 week after. In the 3 weeks I was on normal fill up to my first fill, I had a 5.6 gain. :( I KNOW how you feel, its a definate downer - we had WLS! However, that was only your body's way of saying THANK YOU for calories again, for substance, for something OTHER than liquids. Prior to your first fill, you probably want have restriction. And this is normal. Hang in there! I shared the SAME feelings just last week. Since my fill, it's been greeeat! :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. Right now you are operating on will power. It will get better after that first fill. Just keep the determination going that you had during the Optifast stage. You can do it.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Trust me, the gain after surgery happened to me too! I didn't have to do a liquid diet beforehand, but I lost 1.5 lbs (not much). On my liquid diet after surgery I lost 12 lbs, then when I started eating solids I gained back about 5 of that. You need a fill! Don't be upset, you need that first fill to help you. That is why we got banded, right? I just had my first fill on Thursday, and wow what a difference (now I may be too tight but that's another story, lol). Don't give up! Go for your fill, it will help!

    ReplyDelete
  6. You must be due a fill soon? Do you know if they put any in the band when they did surgery?

    My first fill is scheduled for 4 weeks afer surgery so only one/two week at full food and relying on self control. The reason we get the surgery is our self control is not really something we can rely on - so don't beat yourself up about it!.

    Can you talk to your clinic?

    ReplyDelete
  7. Hey - banded on 1 April 2009, and in the first six months only lost about 10 kilos. 27 October 2010, I am exactly 50 kilos down. My weight loss was a very slow burn in the beginning and I was very worried that I would not lose the weight. But I did! Chin up!

    ReplyDelete